To my Herons,
The other day I went to our team workout, expecting that we’d be doing a circuit workout, and knowing full well that I wouldn’t be able to participate. Most of you began to ‘riverdance,’ and I left, going into the fitness room to start biking with a few of you who were bike testing (GREAT JOB!). I got bored. So I decided to run around the track, hoping that running around in a circle for an hour would be more entertaining than staring at a stone wall in the fitness room. It was certainly interesting, I’ll give it that.
It wasn’t long before I started feeling funny (see my other posts for what I mean by that). I looked down at my heart rate monitor, expecting it to be somewhere in the 150’s to 160’s.
It read 196. I stopped running.
After a few minutes of walking, I laid down on the side of the track to try to bring my heart rate down. It got down to about 110 and I felt a lot better, so I got up and started jogging again. Immediately my heart rate went up to 190. So I laid down again to bring my heart rate down. I then got up and repeated the cycle. This time, I didn’t get back up for a while.
During the course of this “workout,” not one team member came to see if I was alright.
No, it wasn’t just one. It was EVERY teammate that passed by. Every one of you that saw me laying on the ground staring at my heart rate monitor came over and asked me if I was okay and if there was something you could do.
I just want to tell you that even if most of the time, I will say “no thanks, I’ll be fine, keep going with your workout!” I’m so happy and relieved to know that if I ever do need to say “yes, I do need help,” you’ll be there offering me a hand. It means so much to me to know that my teammates are not just teammates. You are amazing friends that will drop what you’re doing to come to my side, just in case I ever need help, without me ever saying a word. You are amazing women who are not only strong athletes physically, but also have some of the strongest hearts I know, because you extend them to others without thinking twice.
I’m going to miss you all so much over Winter break, but knowing that you’re supporting me every step of the way through this disorder has helped me so much to even get this far. I will be back in the Spring to row with you, hopefully not having to lay on the floor anymore, but if I do, thank you for being you and reaching out to me.
Herons really do flock together.
Love you ladies! – Nora
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